June.30/2010

the past few days have been soo rushed! grad for 2 days and then pack the next day and headed to holland and when i return to canada, the next day ill be off to the states for school! talk about jetlag...how will i ever study this way? =S

so grad....well there isnt much to say but it was the bomb! haha everyone looked hot and the program went smootly...pretty good for the schools first time having a grad! now they can learn for the years to come =p haha okay so right after grad on sat night i went to hang out with the class and we went to go eat til like 12ish in the morning and i was in no mood to sleep so we decided to go to the beach but i ended up not goin at the end cause i had to wake up early and do a load of stuff and pack so i just went home =/

okay so next day i get up kinda earlyish and start doing the stuff on my list cause i wanted to go out for dinner with a friend one last time but i got into shit for that..=/ i told my mom i was goin with a bunch of friends but then after dinner we went to the park and my phone went out of batt so she couldnt get a hold of me and i couldnt get a hold of her(and no..my friends phone decided to act up and not allow any calls but txts..) so anyways after awhile at the park i decided to leave and i went to the nearest payphone and called my mom and of course she was very mad and found out that it was only us two who went and stuff. so apparently everyone was looking for my friend cause he was suppose to be at this teachers house for a studying session which he told me he went to but he didnt...so his mom and everyone called my house and stuff cause they knew he was hanging out with me..=S so anyways i got picked up..and my mom thought i was jus ignoring her calls but my phone really ran out of batts! =/ so anyways she got really mad and was like "oh ur not goin on that holland trip anymore and blah blah blah" so i woke up the next day and my dads like dont sleep too late cause u still have things to pack haha so it turns out i AM goin! well...here i am now! in holland just chillin at 6am..been up since 4ish 5 O_o im gonna be soo tired later! =/

i dont even want to talk about the way here....i hated that feeling so much...lets just say it was...horrible =p

anyways i think im gonna head back to bed and mayb try and sleep for another 2 hours or so..haha =)

:: even though we're far away, know that ill always be there to stay ::

June.20/2010

I feel chained; chained down u shoved me to the ground
I cant run, I cant shout; just let me out
So heartless, this couldnt mean less
Gonna push it in your face, im only human and ive got something to say

Let me rise let me fall let me breathe
I wanna lose control im not afraid to lose it all
Let me break let me crawl
Cause i will get back up again if you let me fall

If I burn down in this fire well, ive got myself to blame
I cant stop or give it up, i need to feel the pain
Can u hear me, dont come near me you'll just get in my way

Say you know who i am and what im about
Then you'll understand that i feel alone, i live my own life

June.13/2010

U left me once again but this time...ill be waiting for u and never giving up ^_^

June.7//2010

i have no clue why but i feel so...happy today!! haha its so weird cause im so cheerful..not saying that im not but i just feel...good! =)i didnt do anything in particular to make me feel this way and i didnt eat anything but...haha man oh man do i feel good!! ^_^

so tomorrow will hopefully be as sunny as today cause im going out and i hate going out in the wet rain and cold wind =/ so anyways, after school, me and a friend (John Mac)are planning on watching a movie but i dont think we'll have enough time for that cause by the time we get to the mall it'll be 4 and we have to be back at school by 6 cause we have a show!! =) i miss being in that show every year =/ basically, the gymnastics team perform a show for us and then the band and choir perform a couple songs...i use to be in all those!!! i hate how they dont offer it to us anymore T.T

okay well i think ill meet up with my friends at the mall while hanging out with John cause theyre all gonna be there anyways to waste some time until the show starts. so hopefully it'll be an exciting day tmr =)

i did my grad speech today...well it wasnt exactly a speech..more like answering three questions and someones recording you doing it like an interview so we can put it together and make a video out of it haha but it'll be awweesome for memories in the future =p so anyways i took like FOREVER to get mine over with cause i kept screwing up and forgetting what to say and just kept laughing the whole time cause my friends were in the room and they were making these funny faces behind the camera at me and i just couldnt help but break out into laughter haha oh how i love you guys <3 but now that thats over with..i get my grad pics tomorow!! my teacher has been holding them hostage until we did our speech recording =.=

so anyways, i had a real urge to go out biking today but i just remembered that i need to pump my bike wheels and...possibly get a helmet xD haha i know i know...if i get caught without one..i would get a penalty fine but whatever LOL so anyways ima go and pump my wheels and go for a spin!! =p

:: you look good wearing anything but you look extra smexy wearing that shirt ;) ::

June.1/2010

its finally the month of june..ahhh how did this come by so fast? usually when the end is nearing, it should be a relief that school is finally going to be done/over with but i feel so stressed for the exams and provincials =S well actually theres nothing to be stressed about...i dont even need to study considering i got accepted already into universities..then im good to go! haha but i still need to do better!

i was checking my mail today and got this email from La Sierra..it told me that i have around $8000 scholarship and theres another one from the music department but i have to contact them about that. i quickly became all smiles and immediately called my mother hoping this would change her mind...but i forgot she was at work so of course she didnt pick up >.> anyways so im dying to tell her tonight and see her reaction and possibly hope to change her mind. LETS CROSS OUR FINGERS PEOPLE!! =p

dont u just hate it when you're friends with someone...and then you guys start getting close and they just have to develop feelings for you and now its all awkward after you find out. well technically, he doesnt know that i know but its just all different now. but i guess its only awkward cause i dont feel the same way and besides..hes younger than mee...which doesnt really matter but its just an excuse haha but im sure its just a phase for him so im just waiting until its over and we can be good friends again =)

okay well im off to do some research about some oil spill close by =S i cant believe we have to do a speech about it tomorow =/ anyways! ill update you on what happens later on~