June.13/2012

hello world, lately, things have been weird. two friends who i thought i was just starting to get close with, have grown distant. it's like all of a sudden, we all grew busy and forgot about each other. but at the same time, i already knew things were gonna go downhill after realizing i was always the 3rd wheeler or 5th wheeler. of course, it's never fun so whenever we do hangout, i try and pass. i've been hanging out with this one friend alot though...maybe a little more than normal. we pretty much spent the whole last weekend together plus the weekdays. i think we'll get sick of each other soon =p but it's nice to have someone to hang out with who lives so close by you and has the same interests as you. one thing that gets a little annoying is that he always pays for me. everytime we go out, he somehow sneaks around me and pays. luckily, i got to pay him back when we went to joeys. i love that a guy wants to pay...shows theyre a gentlemen but after the first time, it just becomes a little irritating. of course, it would be different if he was my boyfriend or something...cause then he can pay all he wants! =) there is so much going on this summer...so many plans that are in progress..there just isn't enough time. if i don't have school, then i have work. i only get one day off from those 2 things every week but even then, it's filled with plans/events. but just because i'm always busy, doesn't mean i don't like it. i'd rather get tired from being busy than get tired from doing nothing or being bored. i love being busy and having things to do. gets me going and keeps my mind off things i don't need to think about. i've lost a few friends in the past because i'm so busy caring about everybody else' problems that i dont have time for them and my own personal life. maybe it's an excuse for me to not deal with my own problems...but whatever it is, it's just a part of me that's hard to change. loving someone means caring about their problems before your own...