Monday, May 31, 2010

May.31/2010

so when something goes wrong in your life...at the end, theres always something that comes out positive from the situation. in this case, it was a special someone who helped me through my hard times and struggles.

when you're so close to reaching your goals and dreams, u almost feel invincible and u feel this joy and happiness overflowing through you...but then its just too good to be true. something or someone just always has to come around and stomp all over your plans and ruin everything for you. well in this situation, its my mother. >=l she has like everything planned out for me...for my whole life; according to the way she wants my life to be...and the way i want to live my life is just out of the question. in highschool, i would understand if she tried to control my life leading me to the right direction but now that im going into college...shouldnt it be my choice?? shouldnt i be able to choose what to do with the rest of my life? so why is she still in control telling me what to do!? its bad enough that shes making me change universities last minute but for me to change what i want to major into..!? if youre doing something you dont enjoy, youre not goin to put much effor into it. doesnt she get that being a doctor or lawyer or something to do with tons and tons of money just isnt my thing...well mayb the money part is =p anyways, i have absolutely no say in this since shes the one paying for my tuition so again...im under her command. i thought that i would finally be free when she allowed me to go to California to go schooling...but again, it was all too good to be true.

just when i thought i found the key to unlock my chains....it turns out to be the wrong key. (<----haha i got that from ur msn status brandon! xD) well anyways..im determined to find the right key...someday =p

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