hello world,
how is love out there for you guys? some of you may know that i had a special someone to call my own up until this past november. im sad to see it end but happy to see it get to happen at all. there are certain experiences in life that teaches you a lot of new things and makes you come to a realization of what is really going on.
to all those people who have been in love and been hurt afterwards, we've all been there. sometimes, there are feelings that you cannot describe. feelings that you wish you could share with someone else so hopefully they can take some of the pain away but it seems that nobody else is hurting but you. isn't it funny how sometimes the people who hurt you most, are the people you keep going back to? but at the same time, the people you love/want the most are the people you're best without. sometimes, the only way to love that person is to not be with them. my friend once asked me "why did God create such a thing called love if people get hurt from it?" honestly, i wonder the same thing too but i have no clue. i just think that God does everything for a reason and all we should do is trust in Him and have faith that He's taking care of you even if you feel like turning on Him.
my relationship with God isn't where i want it to be. i keep telling myself that i need to work on it; i even plan out what i need to do to improve but it somehow ends up being postponed to...never happening. God has been with me through thick and thin..sometimes i wonder why He still puts up with me when everyone else around me has given up. i realize that i blame Him for bad things happening more than i thank Him for positive outcomes. so i apologize Lord!
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