so lately, ive been feeling...strange. i guess my feelings have been up and down. its like im riding this roller coaster but i wanna get off. i guess i feel ...sad? especially this weekend. there's an event at Southern called Asian weekend. so the asian club plans a vespers for friday, then they have a church program for sabbath morning followed by a night program which has difference asian cultures dances, food, and people dress up and just have fun! its the biggest event of the whole school year. i guess i just really wanted to be a part of it..or at least get to attend it. i know i dont miss much of the events going on at Southern since a lot of people post videos and pictures. but idk...im starting to miss it there more and more even though im loving life back home. its just different. a lot of memories were made there and i learned a lot from being there...it was just great! =/
there are certain items you keep for memories and you never throw them away. eg. cards, letters, pictures, etc. i dont like to keep a lot of stuff that people give me that'll remind me of the bad times. but i was going through my wallet and cleaning it out(throwing away old receipts/gift cards) and i found a folded piece of napkin from a restaurant. the restaurant and what was written inside the napkin marked a very special day that use to and still somewhat means a lot to me. it was written from my ex. it was the night he asked me out at a fancy restaurant. reading what he wrote to me just brought back so much ...even brought me to tears. it just made me realize that i couldve been a much better girlfriend. it just really got me thinking. how many times, are we in situations where we regret what we did or what had happened and wish we could turn back time. by the time we wish we could go back, its already too late. im not trying to sound depressing or something but i just feel like there are a lot of times, in certain situations, we should step out of our shoes and look at the bigger picture. maybe look at the situation in the other person's point of view. im realizing that i dont want to live life always wishing i could go back and change things.
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